I figured it out

I haven't felt this much in awhile.

My head was going a million miles a second.

Sitting there was hard, my feelings were... 

Overwhelming, and all seemed to come at the same time. 

Reliving moments that my heart actually physically hurt. 

Realizing I wasn't going to be able to hold back my tears.

You. Thats why. Because Its you.

Its always been you.

Laughing

Invading my insanity

Expecting me to be better

Daring me to feel, and to feel better

Needless to say you somehow break down my walls.

Its as if they were never there sometimes. 

Consciously, I seemed to just let you in.

Only to build them back up with you inside. 

Losing which parts of me are me, and which ones are you.

Everyday is where you are now. A part of me. 

Ready to take on the next issue.

Endlessly talking and willing to stay with me.

Always ready for another adventure.

Lately I've just gotten a little scared.

Losing you isn't possible.

You can't possibly leave me.

I just can't think of one reason why you won't.

They all did. And they were fine without me.

Scared. I'm just scared of things I shouldn't be scared of.

Of things that don't even matter.

Negative is what i'm being right now. 

Life will go on and I can still be happy.

You're probably just sick of me saying this.

My constant ramblings of love leaving

Eternity and not feeling good enough for it.

But I've tried to stop

Endless are the thoughts and therefore endless are my words. 

I just have to realize that we'll still be okay

Not even the smallest things could take us down.

Guarding my heart is unnecessary.

Realizing that now, makes me feel better.

Even thinking about hiding it from you seems dumb now.

There are things you know that no one else does.

And you listened and didn't run. You're still here by my side.

Reading my mind and bringing me joy.

Doubting in you was retarded

Enough of that.

Doubt is for losers. And people unable to live and believe. 

I'm neither of those things now.

And I have you to thank.

I love you.